Speaker 1: 0:00

Sylvia makes it extremely easy to make daily spiritual practice accessible. She has really made it so that in any given moment, if I need just one second of reassurance or grounding, I can just close my eyes and I'm instantly there.

Speaker 2: 0:16

Hi, friends, before we dive into today's episode, I have something important to share. Lighthouse is officially open for enrollment now through August 5th. This is my six-week live mentorship program for soul-led humans ready to ground their energy, tune into their spirit team and take real-world action together, even through uncertainty and overwhelm. If you are ready to work with your spirit team in real time, manage your energy like a leader and get crystal clear on your role in this revolution, we start soon. This round is a beta, which means it's the most support for the lowest investment it will ever be, and I'm only taking a limited number of students so we can go deep. Stay tuned to hear more from Lighthouse students and if you're even just a little curious or feeling a pull, the link to join is in the show notes. And if you're super torn about this decision, coloring in the discernment grayscale in between a clear yes and a clear no is also something we cover in Lighthouse. Okay, let's get to the episode Next up on Soul Level Human.

Speaker 3: 1:26

So I went to Dr Troller after the class and I begged and I gave her my sob story and I'm in tears you know the full tears, because my life is now over. And she rolled up her sleeve and on her forearm was a tattoo, since she had survived Auschwitz as a child. At that point there's no arguing with anybody. And she said come to me, I will help you.

Speaker 4: 1:50

All of a sudden I found myself making over $2 million a year. I even went and saw a reader at the time and she goes oh, you've broken the generational curse of poverty in your family. And I knew exactly what she was talking about. And I think a lot of people are doing that in this time. They're kind of breaking these curses and paradigms of their lineage and realizing we're in a completely different world. Times are changing so incredibly fast and people are changing.

Speaker 5: 2:16

When I've spoken to Michelle, michelle Williams, who plays Molly in the show, she felt Molly coming through her as well. Molly was so busy working through everyone, so I felt very included and very a part of it. But it was still very new for me. Like my, my inadequacies were like I was feeling them tenfold Once I got on set. I felt really good Once the show was finished and I was watching the rough cuts. That's when the grief kicked in, cause I was like, oh, I'm going to really have to let go of her right.

Speaker 2: 2:45

Like really let go. You didn't come here to play safe. You came to remember your power and build what comes next. I'm Sylvia Beatriz, psychic medium and intuition coach, and this is Soul Level Human, the podcast for truth tellers, cycle breakers and soul-led revolutionaries. You didn't come here to bypass the chaos. You came here to lead through it. Before we dive in, I want to let you know that this will be my last episode for a few weeks, while I shift my full energy and attention into wrapping up summer with my kids, starting the school year and preparing for Lighthouse, which is officially open for enrollment right now. The world is moving fast and we need leaders who are anchored, intuitive and ready to act, and that means courage, even and especially when it's scary. Okay, let's talk about this episode.

Speaker 2: 3:40

Today's episode is a little different. I'm pulling together some of my favorite moments from past conversations, even a few from season one, and you'll hear a piece of my own story too how I got into all of this. These are the turning points, the awakenings, the soul nudges we chose to follow. You'll hear stories about generational healing, intuitive gifts cracking open. You'll hear stories about generational healing, intuitive gifts, cracking open, soulmates, arriving right on time and learning to trust the unseen, especially when everything in the 3D feels completely shaky. These are the moments that remind us we are not half soul and half human. We are fully both. It's not 50-50. It's 100-100. And when we stop resisting that paradox, something clicks. If you listen closely, you might just recognize a version of your own story in one of these. Let's get into it. This is a clip of an interview I did as a guest on the Not your Mama's Relief Society podcast.

Speaker 1: 4:44

When did you first realize?

Speaker 7: 4:46

that you had these gifts, these abilities. Talk to us about that process.

Speaker 2: 4:50

Well, it's one of those things that it's like it's the air you breathe and you think everybody breathes the same air. I remember trying to have a conversation in the first grade with my best friend and I was like you know that feeling you get where it's like you're out of your body but you're not in your body, but like everything's really real. And she was like what? You're weird? And I didn't think anything of it. And then, you know, I would have these moments where I was looking in the mirror and I would see my face change in the mirror and like would really freak myself out and it's just all these things that I didn't have language for, I didn't have context for it and I had no idea what was happening to me. I just know that I was scared and sensitive and things felt loud, big, I felt a lot and nobody around me understood. And it wasn't until probably about 2006, when my childhood dog passed away, that I started really diving into the study of all of this, like what actually happens to you after you pass away. Because he was on the table, he was dying, we were putting him to sleep and he was 15, 16 years old and I was able to be there with him, just holding space for him, looking into it Like it chokes me up even now. But just looking into his eyes and just being there saying thank you, mac, I love you, I see you, it's okay, you know you're safe. And then it was like the light was there. And then the light was gone and it was in that moment that it was like I had to know everything. Where did my best friend go? Because in a lonely, isolated childhood of not feeling understood, feeling very alone, mac was my best friend and so that tie was so, so strong.

Speaker 2: 6:40

So after that I just started to just look for everything I could find, and at the time there wasn't really YouTube. Everything of this subject matter was really taboo, was really othered and strange. So it really took a lot of effort to try to find books and materials and whatever, to figure out what on earth is happening. What is this all about? And I just happened to happen to I'm quoting right in quotes find a show on TV that was on by a psychic medium named John Edward, who is incredible. He's, he's still around today. But I was like, oh my gosh, this is possible. Oh my gosh, that's a thing that people do and look at the evidence and it just it started me on a path of really discovering for myself where I fit in in all of that.

Speaker 2: 7:28

The second chapter of that whole story is really 2012, when I had a whole bunch of family members unfortunately pass away and I started feeling them and having them visit me in dreams and leaving me signs and I just felt like they were leading me to the next steps in my evolution. So I was led to the right teachers, the right books and cut to. I'm summarizing a lot cut to. Now I channel for people and I help them refine their own intuition and I do group coaching and one-on-one coaching and I'm starting a podcast this month. So it's been a journey from not feeling like I fit in anywhere to realizing, oh, I was never supposed to fit. I was supposed to find my own thing and teach others, star Hansen.

Speaker 8: 8:15

I remember just talking and feeling. It was just one of those moments where you meet someone and you just know that you're never going to have part of your life without them, where you just are like I mean, I'm getting the confirmations now. It's just you meet them and you just go. I've always known you and it was just like I feel like the whole world just opened up in that moment, or reopened, because we already obviously had a channel going that just realigned in this life and getting the confirmations, like I'm getting now, of just like you two are sisters, and getting the confirmations, like I'm getting now, of just like you two are sisters.

Speaker 8: 8:48

And what's beautiful about what we've done is we've grown together as women, as business owners, as souls. We have just done the work that we've come here to do. You've caught me at times that I didn't think I could survive. I didn't know, when we were sitting there, the magnitude that your presence would have in my life. And we're not even done yet. We're only 20 years into our relationship. There's still so much to experience together, james.

Speaker 2: 9:10

Wedmore.

Speaker 4: 9:10

I was starting businesses from a young age, always had ideas, always working on something like literally like the lemonade stand. When you're seven, I got paid to water all the neighbors' gardens growing up and I would pluck the fruit and then sell it to the other neighbors, like I always had something that I was doing and that was in high school. I was flipping and restoring vintage motorcycles and selling it on eBay. I was always doing something and you know, you go to college, get the degree, realize I didn't want to go any corporate route and I was like this is what I've been doing since I was a little kid, let me start my own business. And I found myself really, really struggling. It was actually four and a half years of exhausting the 3D, which was this operating system that I created of. If I work the hardest and I work the longest, then I will be successful. And, long story short, I ended up getting addicted to Adderall, which is like speed, which I ended up dropping like 70. I look like a skeleton. I was working 12 to 14 hours a day, seven days a week. I had to move back home with my mom and dad because I wasn't making a dollar. You know, my girlfriend at the time broke up with me. All my friends didn't want anything to do with me and I found myself in a really low point and that was really hard because the desire was still there.

Speaker 4: 10:24

I had the dream and I was like I'm putting in the work and I don't get it. But it's really interesting because we learn so much from our parents. So I had that was my dad, you know he was the hardworking real estate agent. But I also had my mom and my sister and I was kind of like being the dude, you know the logical, cerebral, left brain kind of dude. What they were doing just seemed like fairies in La La Land, manifesting and energy and getting readings and buying crystal, and I would just like make fun of all that. And you kind of get to such a low point where, like you want it so bad and you've been doing this for so long and it's not working. You're like what do I got to lose at this point? And you know, slowly they started opening me up. I think the first was a book my mom got me. It was Abraham Hicks and it was asking and it's given. First time she gave it to me, I throw the book in the trash. You know it's just like don't give me this garbage, like this is just ridiculous. So I was very staunchly against all of that Right, and you know, little by little I opened up to it and I really treated it like a science experiment in my life.

Speaker 4: 11:30

The more I leaned into the spiritual aspect and integrated that into my life, everything I touched just turned to gold, like everything started working. And so there became a point where like I can't, I can't ignore that anymore and I just kept following that. And the short premise is the more you grow, the more your business grows. And I chose a path of spirituality as a way for me to grow within myself. And I think that is so much of spirituality is. People might have some preconceived notions, but I look at so much of it like it's just us growing, allowing more of your truer self to come through and shedding layers of the ego, the aspects of ourselves that don't serve us. And the more you let that come through, the more at least my experience has been like, the more your life just seems to have a congruency, a workability and a flow. And so, you know, I just didn't stop, I dove in. You know the deep end.

Speaker 2: 12:27

You drank the Kool-Aid Welcome.

Speaker 4: 12:30

I drank the Kool-Aid and I ended up building a business and all of a sudden I found myself making over $2 million a year. I even went and saw a reader at the time and she goes oh, you've broken the generational curse of poverty in your family. And I knew exactly what she was talking about. And I think a lot of people are doing that in this time. They're kind of breaking these curses and paradigms of their lineage and realizing we're in a completely different world.

Speaker 4: 12:55

Times are changing so incredibly fast and people are changing, and what I did was I had a passion I still do, because I went to film school so I had this passion for video.

Speaker 4: 13:07

So I built a business on the internet making videos and teaching video and it was so much fun and obviously very lucrative and successful. But as time continued to progress, this subtle thought that turned into this nagging nudge was just like pulling at me, which is like you're helping people with video, but that's not the biggest thing that's helped you. And so I'm sitting here saying like, hey, video is going to help you, video is going to help your business, and obviously it's a tool, but at the end of the day, what was helping me was all that spiritual stuff, all that growth that I was having, and so I just said you know, I'm going to just start a podcast and I'm just going to start talking about this stuff, and it really took off and people really started. Well, actually, at first it didn't. If I'm being really honest, I had an email list at the time of 170,000 email subscribers. I had so many unsubscribes that I was left with less than 30,000 people.

Speaker 2: 14:00

And how did that impact you at that time and how did that impact you at that?

Speaker 4: 14:02

time I didn't care, I just it was weird, like talk about the intuition piece, like I just knew I was like it doesn't matter, this is where I'm going. Change is inevitable, obviously, and when changes occur, there's these transitory periods of time where to be not to sound too cliche where, like one door is closing, the other is opening, and so often where we hold ourselves and our attention is on the door that's closing. And so when that's where your attention is, you see what's going out the window, you see what you're losing, you see what you no longer have, and that puts us and hooks us into more fear and scarcity and lack. And I just didn't go there. I just was like no, I know, this is what I'm supposed to do, and I just kept going. There was this moment of time where like oh my gosh, like Sylvia, I'm getting negative reviews, like this guy's lost it, he's crazy. I mean like, just like getting just barraged.

Speaker 1: 14:54

He's changed.

Speaker 4: 14:55

But here's the funny thing it was the comments I was getting was me, it was old, me it was the skeptical, closed mind, logical me and, and so I had a lot, and I still, to this day, I have a lot of compassion for that, and I think that's something that I I really honor and cherish in in the work that I do is that opening my heart to allow more spirituality into my life has had a tremendous impact in every area, not just business.

Speaker 4: 15:25

When a lot of people come to work with me, they come to work with me to be their business coach, and so a lot of them are very rooted in the 3D and solely in the 3D, and so they have a lot of skepticism, closed-mindedness, a lot of density, and I have nothing but compassion and understanding because I'm like, oh, that was me too, and I think part of the beautiful journey for a lot of people is making that transition, and it takes a lot of courage, it takes a lot of faith and a lot of openness, because the conversations that we're having are so intangible.

Speaker 4: 15:54

It's this subtle energy that, especially when it's new for you, you're kind of like I'm just making this up in my head, this thought or this vision. Did I just make that up? And to trust that and to trust in yourself and to trust in what you're receiving and to trust in something that you cannot see is such an impressive feat of courage. First off, you know I have so much compassion and it's always a it's always a joy if I could play that role. To open that door for somebody and I see that that's what I do for a lot of business owners is bringing that into something that's a very 3D game makes it a lot more fun.

Speaker 9: 16:30

Grace Chan. And so I'm doing that in my 20s, not even realizing. Oh, this is me listening to my intuition, this is me listening to the guidance of my soul. It really just felt like stop trying to put me in a box, I want to do this. It really felt more like you've told me my whole life I can't be creative and make money at it. Well, let me show you so.

Speaker 9: 16:50

Even when I got to art school, I had professors at school telling me I couldn't do it, that I didn't have the chops. I had a teacher tell me you're not creative, you should be a producer. So it's funny that you started this conversation saying oh Grace, don't be so humble, You've gone viral, You've held these books. I had somebody tell me you're not creative, right? And then I've had photo series go viral globally, around the world, get turned into books. And then the dean of my department even we have something called a midpoint review where they assess where you are and tell you what you need to do to graduate and she basically was like you got to step it up.

Speaker 2: 17:24

You're not cutting it, girlfriend, no, Just had all these obstacles, all of these points of contact where you could have been like you're right, Nevermind.

Speaker 9: 17:32

Right, and there's something in my soul design. There's some rebellious fire. I have a lot of fire energy. When someone tells me that I go, let me prove you wrong, versus, let me go shrink and hide, you're right. I don't know what that is. I can't tell you what that is, except that there's something deep within me, and I think that's why, from a very high level now, it would make sense that I'm helping people do the things they want to do, when deep inside they're telling themselves they can't do it, because I'm like, yes, you fucking can you can do it.

Speaker 2: 18:02

So it's like they get to borrow your aura and your fire and your strength for a little bit. That's really cool, maybe.

Speaker 9: 18:07

So, yeah, maybe.

Speaker 2: 18:07

so it's like you have so much of it. You have an overflow to share. I love that Autumn Reeser.

Speaker 10: 18:14

We're existing in many cultures of abuse and to perpetuate that is not feeling good to me.

Speaker 2: 18:22

The thing about the self-flagellation, the discipline, the control, and how that actually becomes a tool of oppression, a tool of wounding. It's a way to keep that hurt cycle going versus. Coming from. Love allows that to transform things almost as if by magic. Right, a loving gesture, a loving word, even and especially if it starts with us, has the power to change everything, to move mountains. So do you have an example of what that looks like in your life, how that's transformed a situation that had been untenable before?

Speaker 10: 18:59

I think I want to come at this from an example that I think most people will relate to, which is dieting or trying to get yourself healthy Talk about soul level, human age that most people come at right. The absolute, sure fail way to not succeed at your diet is to be self-punitive, right, and it's usually how people start January I'm not going to eat this and I'm not going to eat this, and I'm not going to do this.

Speaker 2: 19:24

I have to kick my own ass, yeah, I have to get my shit together, yeah, and it's in the language it's violent.

Speaker 10: 19:30

It's violent, yes, exactly, and we're used to that way of being because we're living in systems of violence, right, yes. So lo and behold, by day three I'm not going to eat any cookies. Well, if I just have one. Well, if I eat the cookie in the dark. Well, if I eat the cookie at you know the justification we go into in order to justify that.

Speaker 10: 19:56

We have set ourselves up to fail so that we can then punish ourselves, so that we can continue to exist in a cycle that we already know. Which is a cycle of I'm not good enough, yeah. Which is a cycle of I can never get anything right. Why? Because a lot of us were told that as children yeah, right, or we're told the inherited language, that's it. Or you get 70% on a test you failed, as opposed to no. No, a test is supposed to just be a measure of knowledge, so that we can then receive support for that which we have yet to learn.

Speaker 10: 20:31

So I use that example because most people can relate to it. That's not going to work. And then you're going to be in the same cycle for the whole next year, because your soul is going to rebel against that, because your soul doesn't want to be abused. This is not of God, not how divinity wants to experience itself within a human form, right? And so a lot of my journey has been around setting myself up for something like that, um, messing up and then learning that I can forgive myself and or that there's nothing to forgive, or that there's nothing to forgive, right. It's like, okay, that happened, that happened, I love you.

Speaker 2: 21:12

Let's start again, and this, this right here, is what so many of us were never taught that we could love ourselves into growth, that we could break cycles without abandoning ourselves in the process. This is what Lighthouse is about Not me giving you answers from a guru mountaintop, but creating a space where you can finally hear your own answers clearly, safely and in real time. I'm not here to tell you what your path should look like. I'm here because I've been there many times where things are breaking down and your gifts are waking up and it feels like no one gets it, and I know how to hold space for that. Just because I had to figure all of this stuff out on my own doesn't mean I think you should have to. Just because I had to figure all of this stuff out on my own doesn't mean I think you should have to. I'm here to hold space, to help you build trust with your spirit team, clear the noise and walk in your power, even when the world feels like it's turned upside down.

Speaker 6: 22:25

Here's how one of my students from the first round of Lighthouse described the experience. What I am the most grateful for is that I had a guide in Sylvia in discovering how to navigate as smoothly and seamlessly as possible what was happening to me physically, emotionally, spiritually. It can be really easy to share with people and have them not understand and judge what we're experiencing. If I had not had Sylvia holding my hand through this intense period of time, I can guarantee I would not have been as open to what I was experiencing and what was happening and it would not have been as smooth. I'm very grateful that I've gotten to work with her in the first Lighthouse Group program.

Speaker 2: 22:59

If you are feeling that, call. Lighthouse is open through August 5th.

Speaker 10: 23:04

And so, to use the diet example, to go further with that, that we shift our diet not to punish ourselves into shape, but to nourish ourselves into greater love, into greater health, into creating a vessel that can support, can better support. Whatever my mission here is, whatever my commitments are to be a better mother, to have more energy available for my children, to have more energy available for myself, for romance, for love, for whatever it is that my soul wants to express and experience while I'm here how can I better nourish myself to experience and express all of that?

Speaker 2: 23:51

So you just mentioned how everything really is truly all connected and if you're not filling yourself up, you won't be able to do any of the things around you. Yeah, yeah, and it sounds so simple, it sounds so basic. It sounds, well, you know, so obvious, but it's so. I mean, it's just everything, it is everything.

Speaker 10: 24:11

Yeah but also so many of us are over committed and overtaxed and feel like we have to do this and that, and also beyond the pta or a room, mom, or whatever it is, without really realizing, oh, I don't actually have the base to do all of that and fully be in my body and enjoy it. Right, we're so used to over committing.

Speaker 2: 24:33

Yeah, I think so much of that really comes down to well, not having the awareness, first of all, that all of those dynamics exist, that they all have an effect, that we have energy that affects everything and the lack of honesty around all of it too. If you're not aware of it, you can't have an honest conversation about it. Once you're aware of it, then you're still operating in the have tos. Well, yeah, it doesn't matter, because I have to, I have to, I have to. Well, yeah, it doesn't matter, because I have to, I have to, I have to. But then honestly, truly honestly, if we are able to get to the conversation with ourselves about does this fill me up? Does this feel right? Is this even necessary for me? Is this mine?

Speaker 10: 25:25

All of those conversations really start with an introspection. That takes a lot of courage and most of us aren't able or willing to get to that place. You can accelerate your healing process, your transformational process, your manifestation process. Let's say, you want to use that word. That's the word that speaks most to you. This is the acceleration path to all of that.

Speaker 10: 25:37

You have to like, you don't have to, first of all, you don't have to do anything. The invitation is to just identify the physical sensation in the body and let it tell you what's going on. That's the first part. The second part in the spiritual bypass part, when people are in these stages of awakening and they don't want to be in the body and they're floating around and they're feeling angels and they're feeling you know God, and they're having these incredible experiences. One of my sons taught me this actually my little one. I was saying something to him. I was in my bullshit that we do as parents I'm teaching, teaching my kid. Oh, I'm so enlightened, right, and whatever it was I was saying to him. But I was saying something like you know, you came here to have a spiritual experience and he goes. That's not why I came here, I came.

Speaker 2: 26:24

And I was like ding, ding, ding ding ding.

Speaker 10: 26:26

Thank you, sir. Yep, and uh, he was eight at the time. Wow, and it was. I was getting this lesson from all directions because, um, it was exactly the lesson I needed. No, I'm here in a human body because I chose to be here in a human body, which means I am here to have a human experience. Yes, I'm a soul. Yes, I'm spirit. Yes, I am a piece of the divine, currently in a human body, currently in a vessel. That's the game. So, if I am trying to bypass that part of the game, I am not present in the experience that I'm choosing. I am not present to the lessons. At eight years old. Yeah, he didn't say all of that, he went on to say some other genius things. I mean, but just that one little soundbite. I know, life-changing, life-changing. He's got these moments of just beautiful little sage. I mean. And that's the thing with all of us, with our kids. We're not their teachers, they're ours.

Speaker 7: 27:29

Jenny Finley. What's crazy is that I was having these intuitive dreams where I kept seeing red rocks. And I'm a big Indiana Jones fan, so I just assumed it was Monument Valley, the opening of Indiana Jones' last crusade. So I had two weeks vacation off from my job and I had planned to go camp in Monument Valley with my dog and then James called me and said do you want to come to Sedona? And I said aren't there red rocks in Sedona? Isn't it like big red rocks? And he was like yeah, and I'm like I think I've been dreaming about that I'm going to come visit you in two weeks. And he was like Jen, I have invited so many friends to come visit me in 2020. And no one has ever said I'll be there in 10 days.

Speaker 7: 28:09

But I remember driving out and having this energy hit me of like what do I do if I'm still in love with this man? And my mom was so cute. She was like you just turn around, you come back home, because at that time I didn't know what his relationship status was. And anyway, when we reconnected, it was like no time has passed and we could not believe that. It was like no time has passed and we could not believe that. It was like the universe just brought us back together. He said he texted me randomly because pretty much the moment that he got out of his marriage he started seeing me in meditation and he would hear my name and then his mom and his sister started dreaming about me and they're super intuitive too, which, of course it makes sense.

Speaker 7: 28:46

And they were like well, we weren't going to reach out because we knew what was going on in his life and he's living alone in Sedona and I'm not going to be like, call your ex-girlfriend. But I came in so powerfully and later, when we got back together, I asked show me what this soul bond is. How did that come about? And this is like getting into the woo woo stuff.

Speaker 2: 29:12

So I assume that your listeners are in this because you're so oh, we're all about it, yep.

Speaker 7: 29:16

But I had this dream where I was in an Egyptian-like hall and it was me, James, and we had a boy with us that was our child, and we had a conversation that was like about our soul contract and we both agreed we won't be together in every single lifetime because we have to allow each other to have other experiences or to grow. But James said to me if anyone ever hurts you, I will find you. And I woke up and was bawling.

Speaker 7: 29:51

Like I'm keeping it together right now, oh my God, because what had happened was I had been so wounded by a man that I trusted.

Speaker 7: 30:02

And then the amount of oh my gosh, I'm getting chills the amount of time that it took for James to reach out. And then, when we came back together, I just felt like it is the single most miraculous thing that has happened in my life. That has solidified everything I always wanted to believe about soul paths and your people and relationships, and that you can let go of something and if it's really real, it'll come back to you. But then also in the alchemist there's a beautiful line that's like if what you found is like it's real is, if it's pure light, when you come back to it it will be there and it's like otherwise it's just a flash and it's passing by and it's beautiful.

Speaker 7: 30:48

But if it's, if it's really real, you don't have to be worried about letting it go. It will, it will come at the perfect time. And now that we're back together, he and I will recount these life events that have happened that have really shaped us into who we are, so that we are so much stronger and more interesting and dynamic as a couple that we kind of now we're kind of like well, I don't know that I would trade it. I think that who we've become out of that time apart made us stronger together now it makes sense obviously looking back, but Dan going through it sucks.

Speaker 7: 31:21

Oh my gosh, Going through it was like I did not understand. I did not understand and I really had like a, especially when you feel like you've had that relationship with someone where they're setting the standard for what it feels like to be connected on a soul level. It's very challenging to then go and date where you don't feel that, because the contrast it creates a lot of clarity and I think some people they don't, maybe they haven't experienced that level of like. When I'm with this person, it feels like Everything's lit up.

Speaker 2: 31:54

Lori Rivers.

Speaker 3: 31:56

I didn't want to take the class. Once I found out what it was about, I signed up for it, thinking it was going to be an EZA, because it said natural sciences, and I was like oh, biology, botany, zoology great. Because I was an international relations major, minoring in cultural anthropology, and I could not drop my GPA further. I was a scholarship student and math had already taken it down a little bit. Was this wonderful professor? She had many degrees. She had three PhDs, five masters, a ton of bachelor's degrees in everything from classical piano to philosophy, to quantum mechanics theory, from arts to sciences, and she had this very thick Germanic accent. Dr Troller opened up the class with welcome to quantum mechanics theory. My hand, shoots up Excuse me, excuse me, I'm a liberal arts major, I'm a humanities major, I need to be excused from this class. The panic rising. I'm a scholarship student. And she said oh no, I don't let girls out of my class, I do not let women out of science classes. We need more women taking science. So she was way ahead of women in STEM, girls in STEM. I go to her and I am the first woman in my mom's side of the family to go to college. Okay, so I'm like, ah, I'm going to let everybody down, I'm going to fail. And it was.

Speaker 3: 33:32

I went to an expensive school. It was a very expensive private school with a very small student body, and I chose that on purpose. I had the right. You know idealism. It was based on getting to know other people from other perspectives, other cultures. It was built on the idea of what, if people from a lot of different places got to know each other as human beings, we might be able to stop wars. So that's why I went there. But I was also with a lot of kids who had a lot more money than me and it cost a lot. So those scholarships were very, very important, a lot. So those scholarships were very, very important.

Speaker 3: 34:10

So I went to Dr Troller after the class and I begged and I gave her my sob story and I'm in tears, the full tears, because my life is now over. And she rolled up her sleeve and on her forearm was a tattoo since she had survived Auschwitz as a child. At that point there's no arguing with anybody. And she said come to me, I will help you, and the things she said beyond that to let me know I'd be okay in the class. Can you imagine smaller than small? And I went, yeah, can you imagine bigger than big? Yeah, you'll be fine. That was her slogan, you'll be fine. And I was the only person to get an A in that class and it broke my brain Like my brain hurt, not just in the front part. You know how your brain hurts when you're learning something new and it hurt all the way to the back.

Speaker 3: 35:02

Man, nobody knew about quantum mechanics. Nobody knew about Stephen Hawking. It wasn't part of your popular dialogue in 1989. It was not Learned about the Higgs boson. So, like in 2012, when they finally found it, you know I was dancing around my living room. You know, like, oh my God, and Higgs got to live to see it. You know.

Speaker 3: 35:41

But what quantum mechanics theory did? Is it confirmed for me that sense of being connected to the rocks and the trees and being able to feel energy and see energy, which I'd been pushing away? Spiritual experience, or I saw a dead relative come out of my closet, or all those things? It confirmed for me that that was entirely possible. It didn't make me crazy and there were things we hadn't studied yet or didn't have the ability to measure.

Speaker 3: 36:04

I was still very cautious with it because I saw a lot of chicanery and charlatans and hucksters out in the spiritual and religious spaces. Because it's hard to measure you can't prove stuff and so that more than anything I think, kind of put me on my pathway that I'm on now Because I was very logic driven and to me a lot of the faith I had was logic based. So I know that sounds weird because they're not supposed to go together. It also then takes away the separation from a soul being and a physical being, because your very cells of your body are in-souled If you think about quarks and neutrinos and bosons and they have this animus within them that makes them there, and to be there is to be alive.

Speaker 5: 37:05

Nikki Boyer, I think I was so nervous and so caught up during pre-production time because I'd never been an executive producer. It was new for me. I was trying to be included as much as I could and be a part of it without being like there's a certain kind of walking on eggshells that can happen when the person who created the original content is in the room. And I think very early on I had to create such a bond with my showrunners, kim Rosenstock and Liz Merriweather, that where I could say you talk about me like I'm not here, talk about this like I'm not, like you can dive in creatively without having to worry about my feelings. Don't worry if I cry because that's my love language, don't worry if it seems uncomfortable, like I want to serve the greater purpose, and so very quickly.

Speaker 2: 37:55

Incredible humility Like that's hard.

Speaker 5: 37:59

I just trusted it. I. But thank you for saying that. I just didn't want to muck up how Molly was coming through them, right, like I wanted her to be able to come through them as well. And, michelle, when I've spoken to Michelle Michelle Williams, who plays Molly in the show, she felt Molly coming through her as well. Molly was so busy working through everyone so I felt very included and very a part of it. But it was still very new for me, like my, my inadequacies were like I was feeling them tenfold Once I got on set. I felt really good Once the show was finished and I was watching the rough cuts. That's when the grief kicked in, cause I was like, oh, I'm going to really have to let go of her. Right, like, really let go. And um, when I watched the series, I watched the last episode in my bed with my husband and I just remember the cry that came out of me.

Speaker 5: 38:51

It was kind of the same cry that happened after she had died and I remember thinking oh, this is a second, this is a second version of a death. But, like then, I woke up the next day and here I am doing interviews and talking about her. So I, like she keeps becoming like a reborn version of herself with each like year that passes.

Speaker 5: 39:09

So I don't know if she'll ever like leave my soul, because she's just so deeply within me and I'm talking about her and living with her so much. I feel her so deeply in every phase of all of this.

Speaker 2: 39:22

Did you find that things that might have been kind of 3D harder to line up were easier with her working behind the scenes on it?

Speaker 5: 39:32

Yeah, yes, because I felt like when things would get muddy or we would be like, what do we do with this? How do we do it this way? I just trusted that, with Molly working through us and with all these amazing creative minds that it just needed to to. You need to just be patient and give things a process. Let things be uncomfortable for a minute, let it kind of marinate, let people get yeah, let it breathe.

Speaker 5: 39:56

And I learned that Molly taught she was very, very smart and very emotionally intelligent and very patient, and I learned that from her. Oh, it's 1111. Oh, it is 1111. I just looked up right at my I don't know why I looked at my clock but yes, I felt Molly a lot being like it's okay, it's okay, you don't have to fight it, like you don't have to fight for me anymore, like it's okay, cause I'm a fighter, I will fight for my feelings, I'll fight a calmness. And when things felt uncomfortable, I knew that it was just part of the process and that was really great lesson for me. But she was around, I felt her magic all around and the fact that Michelle felt her as well was really just a beautiful reminder that she was with everyone, I mean even my production designer.

Speaker 5: 40:45

He called me and said Even my production designer. He called me and said I know it's set in New York and Molly lived in LA, but she was born in New York and I want to incorporate things that she loved in the place that Michelle's Molly's apartment will be. And I sent him photos of the furniture that she had and art that she liked and he said I thought you said you had some of her artwork as a little girl. And I said I do, and he printed it and put it in. So there's little Easter eggs in the show of Molly's artwork from her childhood. She was actually a really great painter when she was a very abstract art but so ahead of her time and so there's some artwork in the show that is actually Molly's existing.

Speaker 5: 41:25

I know so, like everyone was just so in tune with her, so she was working through everyone on that set. I felt it so deeply.

Speaker 2: 41:33

We have heard so many beautiful turning points in this episode, stories of people trusting their path, following intuitive nudges and stepping into new levels of power and courage, even and especially when it feels scary. That's what Lighthouse is all about, and I want to leave you with this reflection from one of my very first students who went through the program back in 2019.

Speaker 1: 41:58

Hi, I'm Rhiannon and I took Sylvia's Lighthouse course in 2019. I cannot say enough amazing things about it. Before I took Lighthouse, cannot say enough amazing things about it. Before I took Lighthouse, I was aware of the spiritual connection that I did have, but I was unaware of how to grow that connection and what that connection could be, and after taking the course so much opened up for me. Sylvia makes it extremely easy to make daily spiritual practice accessible. It doesn't have to be a big, grand gesture and since doing Lighthouse, I find it so easy for me now to just instantly click in. I don't have to sit down and light candles and think about it. She has really made it so that in any given moment, if I need just one second of reassurance or grounding, I can just close my eyes and I'm instantly there. I highly suggest Lighthouse. It will change your life in every aspect of your being and your spiritual connection and your emotional connection to what is the bigger picture. Thank you, sylvia.

Speaker 2: 43:03

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Speaker 2: 43:49

Other approaches are about either focusing only on the energetics or only doing the boots on the ground activist work. But Lighthouse is a process. It's about maximizing your 3D impact and 5D experience while you're living. This is the how of soul level human. While you're living. This is the how of soul level human. We are both, and Soul totally soul and human totally human. Lighthouse is about the how. Thank you for listening to Soul Level Human. If this episode moved something in you, share it, text it to a friend, post to your stories. The soul level revolution spreads one brave human at a time and your voice makes a difference. So until next time, remember to slow down, tune in, trust your guidance and keep having the audacity to choose the highest timeline. When you show up fully, you give others permission to do the same. Make this the timeline where you show up.